Now I don't have to listen to all those songs in full.
Who knew that the recording industry only knows how to write songs in one key.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
United State of Pop 2009
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Catch the Wind

My grandmother, Mama, died last Tuesday morning. From elementary school through most of my college years I stayed with her about once a week. Through high school, unless I had a basketball game or band thing, I stayed at her house on Friday nights. When everyone else partied, or whatever you're supposed to do on Fridays, I went to Mama's ate junk food and watched TV. It was my escape every week. She used to make me a huge plate of spaghetti and garlic toast for supper, sometimes we'd splurge and have pizza. Or if she needed supplies we'd go over a town to Wal-Mart, I'd get a $5 toy and we'd go to Applebee's where I'd get the double cheeseburger and a cookie shake. Mama usually had the quesadillas, probably the reason I like them now. When I graduated high school she took me and my cousins on a cruise to Bermuda it was most awesome I'd do it again in a heartbeat. The first time I remember her crying is when I left for the Naval Academy after high school, and then again when I came back. While I was at Jewell before transferring to Wheaton I resumed my weekend stays at her house. After I graduated from Wheaton and went back to get another degree at Jewell I stayed with Mama Sunday nights as her caregiver, at that point she had full-time live in help. That continued until I moved to LA little more than a year ago. It was during that return to Jewell and staying with Mama that I started singing and playing my guitar regularly. Every private concert ended with Jolene, even the ones this last month with her in the hospital. She liked to hear me play and I loved playing for her. I'll never have a more captive audience. Or one more prone to be lulled asleep by my music.
I played at her funeral on Saturday. I would have liked to sing Jolene, but I didn't think it would be appropriate. I played Catch the Wind instead. My two cousins payed their tribute first in words, beautiful, appropriate words, then I played. I thought I'd make it through, but I got to the 3rd verse and broke down. I started thinking about the lyrics, "When the rain has hung the leaves with tears I want you near to kill my fears to help me leave all my blues away," and couldn't do it. I did manage to recite most of the rest, "Standing in your heart is where I want to be, I long to be..." But I couldn't finish it. Thankfully my mom, who was sitting at the piano, finished, "Ah, but I might as well try and catch the wind."
It'll be a long time before I see my Mama again. But she's dancing and laughing and singing at the feast. I've never heard Mama sing, I used to sit next to her in church and she'd just read the hymns without singing. I can hardly wait to hear her sing.
I love you Mama. I'll miss singing for you.
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Searching for Something?
The Arts

I wonder how any Christian could argue against the relevance and importance of the arts...
For surely the Bible itself is art. Isn't it the definitive collection of God inspired/revealed poetry, stories, and song?
Art is the human mind trying to capture the seen and unseen beauty and truth of the world. All true art is inspired at its core, and where does this inspiration come from but ultimately from God whether or not the artist recognizes the source.
I'm just glad I'm not alone on this stance. The good people at Ravi Zacharias agree and are turning their attention toward the arts.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Road to a Higher Degree
Home and Books
In the last week or so I've been trying to catch up with my reading. I started off with one of my all-time favorites. When I read My Side of the Mountain in 6th grade I was absolutely convinced that I wanted to do the same thing. I quickly found out though, that outdoorsyness is not my strong suit. We went camping in the mountains for a week and the whole time I replayed movies in my head and wished for Dr. Pepper. SCA camping is much much more up my ally.
I also read Percy Jackson #2, which I really enjoyed. I've changed my mind on the series. I still have some qualms but I'm looking forward to reading the rest of the series as soon as I can find them in the Library, I'm thinking I'll have to order it in. Read Ella Enchanted and it was super awesome, I must say I liked it better than the movie, but I enjoyed the movie in its own right. On the not kiddie side I read the latest Sookie Stackhouse, which is by far my favorite vampire book series. *pssst* Sookie has a personality and so do the vampires. That's why. In my queue is The Ranger's Apprentice, Artimis Fowl, and the graphic novel version of Pendragon (I tried the book and hated it enough to stop reading almost immediately).
My grandma is still in the hospital, but she's stable and pretty close to being back where she was before all this drama. Who knows how long she'll last. Other than that, I've been hanging out with friends and ferrying my other grandma back and forth for her cataract surgeries.
Exciting, I know. The only thing I haven't been doing that I should is....MERCATOR! But I will strive valiantly to finish him in the next 3 days. Probably. :P
Sunday, November 29, 2009
'Sup?
Being sick sucks.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Yosemite

Yosemite National Park is absolutely gorgeous. It makes even my poor photography skills and makes my pics look good. We stayed in a private cabin on actual park land with a perfect view looking down the valley to Half Dome. Hiking the trails was very much like being in my own personal fantasy world. It was amazing. I'm hard pressed to think of anywhere else that I've been that quite lives up to it's beauty. I hope to return someday. Sooner than later.
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Monday, November 2, 2009
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Synecdoche
Simple Life
More and more I find moving out to my grandparents' farm and eeking out a life there more appealing. I know that I wouldn't be satisfied though. Someday I'd like to be able to spend several months a year up there...
Thursday, October 29, 2009
So cool
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Forward Ho!
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Fall
It feels very much like fall. The wind has knocked leaves off of the trees, the air was cool, and many houses have their Halloween decorations out.
Earlier I was listening to Gymnopedie No. 1 by Satie and the wind while drinking Constant Comment Tea. It was awesome. I felt like I should be in a Leonard Cohen song.
Good day, I must say.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Brown... like that stuff that isn't dirt and smells
The single most...er...
The absolute pentacle of...um...
Dan Brown has a way with words. It takes a certain something to make me want to throw a book across the room every paragraph and he certainly has that something in abundance.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
The final straw...
To whoever is paid to care,
Several others and I just received a ticket for parking legally. The citation says that I have parked in a no parking zone for street cleaning. Except today Tuesday and is street cleaning on the opposite side of the street as clearly indicated by the signs on both sides of the street. What is strange to me is that all the cars on the street are parked legally, meaning that there are no cars parked on the side of the street that it would actually be illegal to park. I have included pictures taken at 9:30am of both sides of the street and their respective signs. This does not give me confidence in the employee who ticketed at least 4 cars in a row and failed to notice that there were no cars on the opposite side of the street and wonder why so many people failed to note the proper no parking sign. I would very much appreciate the fine being lifted, for I will not be paying it. You might also consider lifting all the other fines issued by Officer --- on Tuesday October 20, 2009 between 8-10am on ----. I sincerely hope that Officer ---- will be informed of his mistake and that they will be more careful in the future so that this will not happen again to myself or others.
Thanks for trying yet again to steal my money.
Go eff yourself,
Me
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Opportunity
:)
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Legend of the Seeker
As adaptations go I am thoroughly enjoying Legend of the Seeker. Its great to see a high fantasy done well on film. Its hard for me to believe a major network took such a risk.
My favorite part is the portrayal of strong women. Kahlan the leading female is equally as powerful as the leading man. She fights with two daggers, or whatever she can get from the enemy and she fights just as well as the guy with the magic sword without the aid of magic. It's pretty awesome.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Freak Out Week
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Anachronism
Watching A Knights Tale remembering why I came out here in the first place and why I love the SCA.
I have recently discovered that my taste in movies tends to lend itself more toward pure entertainment than any sort of "message." If a film can deliver both like Slumdog Millionaire then we've reached perfection.
Monday, October 5, 2009
Love that Film thing
1. job hunting, not doing so hot
2. not enough movies. MOVIES, not documentaries.
Cure?
1. I need to watch more movies (old faves) and remember why I'm out here in the first place. A little celluloid encouragement.
2. Rearrange my room somehow. Best thing to do when slumps strike.
But first?
WAR!!!!!
I need to get the crap beaten out of me for several days. :)
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Friday, October 2, 2009
The Knightly Queen
dark storms froth her seas
warriors raise your horns of mead
in tribute to our fair Knightly Queen
No golden rose shall bloom as bright
No lady of chivalry display her might
No white sea bird soar to such height
as she who sups in Valhalla this night
A cheer to our lost Knightly Queen
Warriors raise your horns of mead
Hail! Hail! Odin's newest Valkyrie
Winter has come to Caid
Thursday, October 1, 2009
New Layout
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Monday, September 28, 2009
Inglorious
Wasn't impressed. I was hoping I'd like it, but nope, I didn't.
I've heard it described as a Jewish revenge fantasy, and I have to say that I agree. I just didn't see the point of the thing. It went on forever seemed to meander all over the place. Playing fast and loose with history is one thing, entirely changing it with only the barest nod to the real thing is another. I didn't even like the action, if you can call it action, and usually that's what redeems Tarantino's movies for me. There was maybe one cool action scene and it lasted for all of 10 seconds. I can't say that I got bored in the movie, I came perilously close, but Q.T. never dwindled quite long enough to push it over to yawn territory. My biggest gripes were with the lack of any sort of growth in most of the characters and an over abundance of plot lines involving enough characters to make that growth nearly impossible. I have a fundamental objection to a revenge tale where the audience and the characters don't see the underlying evil of revenge even against the foulest of people, there's no point to the story. I like stories with point not just a series of cool bits and ideas. Of course I could be wrong and should I ever see the movie again I may see a lesson learned.
Honestly? Objectively? If we're only talking in pure cinematic qualifications, it was an extremely well done beautifully crafted movie. It's in the same boat as There Will Be Blood and No Country For Old Men, both of which were wonderfully crafted but left me wholly unsatisfied when I left the theater.
Am I asking too much? Probably
Am I too old fashioned? Maybe
Ultimate verdict? Eh, it was a Tarantino movie. You either love or leave it.
The idea of Inglorious Basterds = Pure Awesome
The Actuality of Inclorous Basterds = Awwww I wanted this to be Awesome...
Friday, September 18, 2009
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Doldrums
I guess I'm not totally falling down on the job...
The wind just isn't blowing my way.
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Monday, September 7, 2009
Okami

This simple little flash based game is based on one of the most beautiful innovative games I have ever played.
The entire game is animated in a 3D Japanese calligraphy style that is ridiculously beautiful. Its as though you play in a painting. The storyline for the game follows the sun goddess Amaterasu on her quest to save the world. The coolest bit is that the battles are based on painting. You draw a certain shape on the screen and Amaterasu does her thing. It is freakishly cool.
Sunday, September 6, 2009
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Vegas
I had a blast in Vegas in spite of my absolutely horrible luck.
Lost most of the money I took to gamble with, but not all. I just couldn't stomach that. It's all good though. I had fun with my bud from MO and got to see the joust thing at the Excalibur.
Don't ask me why, but I really do love the place. It's the worst place in the world, THE City of Sin, but there is just something about the Strip that I love. Perhaps it's the false glamor. Or the shows. Or the people watching. Or the Casinos themselves, I love their flair and pretentiousness. Maybe its just the potential that something awesome might happen.
Monday, August 31, 2009
Boat!
This is the only song allowed on-board my future boat.
this and that Enya song...
pfffft!
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Been Thinkin'
I've been out of school for a whole year now...well, half a year if you count my script supervising course.
I miss it.
You don't have nearly 20 (yikes) years in school without getting used to it. And I always liked it. I didn't really try for most of those years, but I didn't have to...
At least with school I always had something to do, someplace to be. You signed up, paid, and they told you were to be and what to do. You get used to that too.
I guess the one thing that school never taught me was how to get a job after you finish.
And...
I want to go back. Not undergrad. I've had enough of undergrad. But the thing is, I really have no idea what I'd want to study unless I could make my own peculiar program that includes basically everything.
But the time isn't right. I've got to do this script supervising thing. I've got to at least have a year or two of real scripty work which I'll consider my film school education. Maybe then, if Mercator does me right, I'll be able to go back to school...in something.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Percy Jackson and Miss Bennet's Zombies
Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief-
Not bad, not bad at all. But not Harry Potter. Very generic. Kid finds out he has special powers. Kid goes special place where there are others just like him. Kid is more powerful/special than all the other kids. Kid has to save the world because the adults are too stupid/not allowed to. I enjoyed the book well enough. But naturally some things bothered me. The fact that there are all these bastard children of old Greek gods around doesn't seem like the most wholesome message. Why Greek gods? I supposed because everyone is familiar with them even though they fell out of vogue nearly 2000yrs ago. And I don't particularly like how impertinent Percy is toward his elders or supposedly powerful gods. It's a book to be enjoyed not intellectualized I suppose.
Why do kid heroes always have to be rude and disrespectful toward just about everyone else? It's annoying and only encourages kids to become know-it-all jerks by the time they're 12. I'm of the opinion that there are plenty of those around already. And there never seems to be any ramifications for these attitudes or actions it's always dismissed as being "spunky" or some bull. I have nothing against spunk, but there is a limit, and it's rather boring to have another a-hole 12yr old hero. I guess the thing is, I just didn't like Percy as a person all that much. Now that I think about it, I wasn't particularly fond of any of the characters. Maybe I'm just jaded. Probably, definitely.
Pride and Prejudice and Zombies-
Interesting. I liked it, but the novelty of having a Kung-Fu E. Bennet wore off fairly quickly. I ended up soldiering through mainly because I haven't read the original (I will now). The interjected Zombies were great fun, but I really wish that they hadn't done the ninjas or the kung-fu bits. I found it odd and really a little too much having Elizabeth always going off about honor and her Sholin master.
Fun idea. I think it would work better as a B- Movie than as a novel. That would be Hilarious.
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Absolutely Unbelievable
If you like MUSE this is a must.
Take a Bow- Symphonic Arrangement
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Monday, August 17, 2009
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Back in LA LA land
This is hands down the most gorgeous bike I've ever seen. I'm getting one specially made in my fantasy future. If nothing else I'm getting a poster of it to put in my garage and salivate over. :P
Back from my sojourn in Missouri. It was pretty darn nice to be home to put it mildly. Nice to be back. I missed my peeps here and my XBox360. Although I'm already bored with my games. *gasp!*
Mostly I'm ready to get this whole future thing rolling...
...and I didn't finish Mercator while I was home...
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Monday, August 3, 2009
The Big MO
Cool.
Feels like it should be more than halfway through. But it's nice to have more than a week left. There are still a lot of people to see and things to do.
Friday, July 31, 2009
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Style
I LOVE it!
It's a combination of Romantic, Impressionist, white line (I don't remember the movement), and pure awesome.
Saturday, July 11, 2009
MAPS!
Mercator is going to need some seriously awesome maps.
Oh, how much work I have left on my little cartographer.
First things first. Last three chapters.
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Homesick
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
!!!!!!!!
THIS is the most ultimate awesome game of all time. Or at least mine!
Monkey Island: Special Edition.
The original came free with the first computer that my family owned and I mostly owe my gamerness to this game alone...
Look! A three headed monkey!
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Stand By Me | Playing For Change | Song Around the World
I can't remember if I shared this yet or not...
Love it.
Monday, July 6, 2009
4th of July
I went to AX 09 (Anime Expo) on Saturday and Sunday.
A friend of mine from the SCA asked if I would be in her skit for the Expo. And I said yes. The skit was a part of a costume contest thing. First the costumes are Judged by themselves, then your group performs a skit later that night. It was a very long day. I didn't really get to see any of the expo as my day was mostly spent helping the others in the group fix, put on their costumes, and sit guarding our stuff. I really don't like putting out other peoples fires. We were the Brawler Babes (the chicks from Smash Brothers Brawl). We had Zelda, Samus (Metroid), Princess Peach, and the female Ice Climber (me). We looked awesome and our skit went really well for not having actually gotten to practice it.
I did have some fun but tensions were high and that really wears me out. I'm already scheming for next year, but I only want to do it if I can enjoy the con. Its way too expensive to spend an entire day not getting do explore.
The costumes some of the people put together were ridiculously awesome. The work that had to have gone into some of the feather wings was staggering.
We didn't win, but that's cool. Its not due to any lack of skill or attention to detail. Just the way the cookie crumbles.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Writing
For some reason writing has been especially difficult for this particular chapter of Mercator. I'm thinking it, have something to do with me being afraid to finish the book. Probably because if I finish it, edit it, and then start trying to hock it I might discover that it really isn't good and no one will pick it up.
Or maybe I really am afraid of success, and as much as I hate being stuck in this middle place between school and success I'm comfortable with my life and not really being expected to be anything, or deliver anything, or be a certain way. I can just go on being the person I've become over the course of college.
But I'm ready. I'm willing. And I'm tiered of this comfortable no place that I've developed.
I just hope that God will use me and my imagination soon.
Friday, June 26, 2009
How much do I love this????? LOTS!!!
Oh-Maria
Hail holy Queen enthroned above,
Oh Maria,
Hail mother of Mercy and of Love,
Oh Maria,
Triumph all ye cherubim!
Sing with us ye seraphim!
Heaven and Earth, resound the hymn!
Salve (salve), salve, salve Regina!
(Clapping Hands)
Hail holy Queen enthroned above,
Oh Maria,
Hail mother of Mercy and of Love,
Oh Maria,
Triumph all ye cherubim!
Sing with us ye seraphim!
Heaven and Earth, resound the hymn!
Salve, salve-salve, salve Regina!
(Piano)
Our life, our sweetness here below,
(Oh-o-o)Oh Maria,
Our hope in sorrow and in woe (woe-oh-oh),
Oh Maria,
Triumph all ye cherubim (cherubim),
Sing with us ye seraphim (seraphim),
Heaven and Earth resound the Hymn!
Salve, salve-salve, salve Regina!
A-le-lu-iah
Mater ad mater inter marata
Sanctus sanctus dominus
Virgo respice mater ad spice
Sanctus sanctus dominus
A-le-lu-iah (A-le-lu-iah)
Our life, our sweetness here below,
Oh-o-oh-o Maria,
Our hope in sorrow and in woe,
Woh-o-oh-o Maria,
Triumph all ye cherubim (cherubim),
Sing with us ye seraphim (sweet seraphim)
Heaven and Earth, resound the Hymn!
Salve, salve-salve, salve Regina! (Salve yeah)
Salve Regina! (woh-o-oh)
Salve Regina!
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Michael Jackson - Gone Too Soon
So true.
I have long thought Mr. Jackson one of the most tragic figures in modern music.
A boy who lost their childhood and was burdened with the weight of fame at an age better spent on imaginary stages rather than the bright lights.
A man who once held the world in his palm fallen from grace.
No mercy from the ones who once sang his highest praises. In his darkest hour largely abandoned.
Now on the verge of possible comeback he is stolen from this world.
As tragic as it gets.
"Now cracks a noble heart. Good-night, sweet prince;
And flights of angels sing thee to thy rest."
Shakespeare- Hamlet Act V
Best Movies of all time?
I have to say that they're missing a few. And have accidentally added some that are by no means good enough to be on any "of all time list," but its still a cool graphic.
Taken from /Film, where I get most of my movie news. Although I think I'll be switching to the trades seeing as I need a job pretty badly.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Friday, June 19, 2009
What I do.
Toward the beginning they introduce the Scripty. 'Tis what I do good gentles. And do well. She sums it up pretty gooooooood.
Some day I'll be the big wheel. But first I must prove my mettle as an Excellent Script Supervisor.
Or Script Wizard, the title I prefer.
Ugh. Must find job. Surely I can.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Blah blah snore.
Except for Mercator and strangely, though I know what to write, I cannot seem to make my fingers work on his story.
Just finished The Left Hand of Darkness. It was alright. I understand it's place in sci-fi literature history, but it did not impress me much. Its success is in how alien yet familiar the culture of the planet Winter was. That and in the explorations of how miscommunication might occur between species. Other than that it was alright, not my cup of tea. I usually prefer a little more adventure. Or perhaps it was just the style of writing. I don't know. And don't really care.
Friday, June 12, 2009
Star Trek
Reminded me how I'm an interstellar explorer born out of time. My fondest dream and longest standing desire does not exist and won't for a very long time...
but then again. I did read that article that said that quite possibly those of us under 40 will have the chance to extend our lives perhaps even to a 1000 yrs...
I'm not sure I want to live that long.
Woe to us who dream of the future and long for the past.
We are living in H.G. Wells' future, but to us it will always just be the present.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
I love this place but the traffic sucks
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Sunday, June 7, 2009
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Shadowman
I totally messed up, though. It was only on the first day, so I don't have to feel too bad about it. I honestly thought the shoot started on Wed the 27th, but lo and behold it started on Tue the 26th. Oops.
It's not fun to be woken up at 8:30am by the producer wondering where you are. Or the resulting panic that follows realizing that you are completely unprepared for the day. So, jump out of bed and frantically try to make your printer and computer play nicely so that you can get the script preped in 15 min to head out the door. Only to realize once you get on to set that they never gave you the most recent version of the script, which isn't even reeally the shooting script. Nice. So basically you just struggle through the first couple of days almost faking it, but when you're good you still don't have to fake it... Yeah I'm goooood. Anyway.
Survived the first couple of days and had two off before going back for the last four. Hardly got anything done on the two days off. Why? 'Cuz I just got back from war and was still completely beat up and tiered from that.
And I thought I was being all responsible and stuff by leaving war a day early so that I'd have a day of rest and a day of prep. Good thing I left early.
After that the shoot was smooth. Although I got really bored whenever we weren't actually shooting. 12 hr days are HARD if you AREN'T GETTING PAID. It's really hard to give 110% then. But I don't slack on my job, but I'm not exactly going to go out of my way to shlup heavy stuff around.
Now, this really only applies to student shoots. I'm going to be working on a professional spec thing the next couple of weekends. I'm stoked about it.
I'm kinda under the weather at the moment though. It's hard to take good care of your self and eat right and all that jazz when you're on set for 12 hrs. Even if a lot of that time is waiting. I'm sure I'll get it all straightened out.
Supposedly the SAG drama should be over in the next week or so and productions will be going into final prep mode.
With some providence I'll be landing one of those jobs in the next couple of weeks.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Monday, June 1, 2009
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Fast Time
My number 3 all time favorite comedian!
Right behind Gilda and Madeline. Tied with her comedy partner of course.
Another reason she kicks ass.
Friday, May 29, 2009
Thursday, May 28, 2009
War Post
Potrero is way down south and east of San Diego in the boonies. The shade was lovely and with the breeze kept the temperatures just right. I took Friday to prepare myself to fight on Saturday. For some reason eating has not been my main priority lately and I almost bought it when I was helping house Valentine set up camp. Friday I shot my recurve bow for the first time in competition and didn't miss the target once! Sweet! New Arrows too. James is letting me borrow some of his. As for throwing knives. I either hit the red or can't hit the broad side of a barn.
Saturday was one long day of AWESOME! I had so much fun it's ridiculous. I much prefer small wars to large wars. The fields are smaller and there is a lot more action. I can hardly wait until the next fight.
And my new tent was the bomb. just the right size.
Spent all my refund check at war. Bought a basket and a beautiful knife.
Monday, May 25, 2009
My Captain
amongst the shade and bales of hay
I saw my Fret Knot Captain go down
to his knee with a spear to his chest.
when the Marshal called hold.
He was out there alone and legged
I could not let my Captain lay
between the walls of shields alone.
I gave my shield and my life,
that my Fret Knot Captain be spared.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Friday, May 15, 2009
Wrap Party
Great great day overall.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Screening
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
OH Neglect
and I want to blow shit up on my xbox
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Friday, May 8, 2009
High School
Teenagers today struggle with the same things I did when I was a teen. And I remember that. My teen experience was quite unusual. I lived in a bubble of innocence that I was unaware of and I have now emerged from without bursting. Not many escape the small town christian midwest upbringing and survive college without either their purity bubble bursting and them throwing away every thing they once held close for something more "intellectual," "politically correct," or "liberating." Either that or they totally wrapping themselves in insubstantial religious/bland/middle class/american dream and perpetuate the lie that is killing Faith and the USA
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Hot
Life is interesting.
Here's hoping that I'll get paid eventually.
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Days of Rest?
I get two days off before the last day of shooting and proceed to stay up half the night. I'm going to have to go to bed at 9 just to catch back up on my sleep.
Smart. Reallly smart.
Oh and I'm putting my lip through a quick bootcamp this week because I'm playing my trumpet this Saturday and Sunday for the Altavia Investiture. I need to work out a bunch of little trills and one or two thirty second mideival sounding fanfares.
I'm psyched let's just hope my lip can get back into good enough shape in the next 4 days.
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Busy
Which means I haven't had time for blogging...or Mercator. :(
Only days until I get a break though.
One of the most annoying things about working on a student set is the fact that it takes 2 hours to set up the first shot. It has to be perfect. But the last shot? They scramble around like maniacs set up 4 shots in 10 minutes and often they're unuseable.
And one of the best things about being a scripty is that I don't have to lug heavy equipment. I'm typically a helpful person, but I have nothing really invested in these films. And I'm not getting paid enough ($0) to stick around and lug heavy things. Basically I do my job and jet. If I were working with people I know I'd help. But I'm not...
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Scripty
Today was much much better. Almost as many set ups but only 2 actors to keep track of. I got to sit down and even go to the bathroom! It was great. Tomorrow should be about the same and Tues should be a little more difficult but not all that bad, except the call time will be 6:30am.
Enough. I need to wind down.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Coming Back
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Home
It's sort of weird to be back here when it isn't spring break or anything.
Wow. I've almost been out of school for a year?!
cool.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Hey, Let's Time Travel Y'all
Now that we've got the poster, let's go invent a time machine so we can change things for the better!!!
Yay!
Let's all go kill Hitler. I get to go first!
or
"Hey, don't worry about me, babe, I've got a time machine and a poster. That's all I need to rewrite History!"
Shit
It didn't work. I'm still stuck on the second level of Mario 1 and the Dungeon is getting a little boring.
Ha! Let's keep going.
How about...
you get the glue and I get the gun and we all have a little glue gun fight by sticking all of the broken pieces of history together in a big mess. It can't be any worse than it already is!
Never mind. I kinda like the way things are.
Mainly because of Christ.
Happy EASTER EVERYBODY READING THIS!
whenever you are. you know, it's always Easter in some dimension.
yes I know I'm weird.
Friday, April 10, 2009
Being Creative
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Maps of Coolness
Look! Now they can Map coolness! Mercator would be so proud.
At least now next time I go out to have a good time in LA or New York I'll know where to head so they can tell me that the clubs are full and I can't get in.
Coooooool.
Ode to the Poor Pitcher Whose Name I’ll Never Know
and now everybody will remember his name
as the guy who pitched his ass off
for the Angels in the outfield
catching his fly balls
It’s sad to be true
you never know when
the dark cloak will
come for you
so it would be better to be
ready for the one
whose name you’re more likely to say in vain
though He’d never use yours in that way
so maybe you’d better think before
saying all those things
and the dark cloak comes
to take you away
to the heavenly gate
where you might not get in
_this is for the Angel's pitcher that I just read about on Digg. Heaven Bless his family man. Tragedy.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Most amazing thing ever!
Now THIS. This is probably going to be the most fabulous piece of high school music (original) theater ever performed on the planet Earth. Remembered faintly by only those lucky enough to either have seen it or read about it on Amanda Fucking Palmer's website. (which I read regularly, that is to say almost religiously, because she's so fucking cool, yes there's that word again, and this is the worst run on sentence (and link(ooh parentheses between parentheses between parentheses, now that's the mark of a smart writer! beginning not capitalized either...) ever put between two parenthesizes)
I really want to go see it, but it will be sold out. And I'll be working. And and and... oh well. Life goes on. Until it doesn't and then it's all up to God.
And no I'm not on drugs or drinking. I just am. The way God made me. Heaven help me and the rest of the world, because neither of us are going to know what hit us. (and neither will Dacus.)
Done Finito.
Time for sleep. I just hope I can. And I hope they decide against me on that stupid show because it's going to be sooo hard and maybe not worth it. But then again, when is anything? Worth it, mean.
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
At Gunpoint
Time to reconsider that God thing for a lot of people I would think... Maybe...
I remember now why I liked astronomy and science and shit.
Coupled with this article on how we're all going to live forever...from the same site.
I think it's all pretty damn funny.
Talk about messing with the Apocalypse and the tree of life!
Monday, April 6, 2009
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Bled Dry
What are you stupid?
You just bled our resources dry for how many years and now you want us to gift you money?
Right. Smart. Wait five years when perhaps we have steady jobs, don't ask within the first year when most of us are either unemployed or just holding down a low wage job to get by and pay our loans.
It's stupid. And is not likely going to make us think kindly of you in the future when you come back begging for more money.
I'm tired of being asked for money I don't have for causes that I couldn't care less about. I paid full tuition, I'm not about to help others who may or may not be qualified to even receive a higher education. You don't care about the student's education, you care about your bottom line and the things you can say to lure more into your halls.
Having said that. I love both my colleges. Just one more than the other. Way more.
Christo et regno ejus. Baby.
Friday, April 3, 2009
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Double Mode
Sometimes I'm this really confident outgoing social person who loves being around people and exploring new places.
Sometimes (most of the time) I'm this really insular person who is afraid to talk to people and is reluctant to leave the house at all.
It's really really weird. I wish the social person would just stick around.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Late Night
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Great Day
I don't know what it was, but I had a phenomenal day.
Nothing special happened.
Spring is in the air.
Ate Vietnamese food.
Went to class.
Finished Chap 14 of Mercator.
Playing my new favorite video game.
I'm just really happy.
Nice. :)
Friday, March 27, 2009
Forgotten
I remember now.
And all because of The Matrix.
It was the first rated R movie that I ever saw. And it was largely responsible for sparking my growing obsession with movies. I remember how blown away I was watching it for the first time on the big screen in my basement in the dark after senior prom (or junior winter formal it's hard to remember). I've always been in love with the magic of movies. Before I could talk Superman stole my heart, he flew. In fifth grade Jurassic Park blew my world apart. And in high school I found out what The Matrix was.
I remember now.
That fire.
That Magic.
God help me.
I want it.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Monday, March 23, 2009
I should know better
Eeegads!
Has it been that long? I have no sense of time anymore. I need out of this rut.
Anyhoo. Of course it has to be book one of a series that isn't all out yet. In fact it is the only book of the series out so far. Even worse it just kind of leaves off without any sort of real ending!
Evil!
...
It just occurred to me that I will be guilty of a similar crime in less than a month. And should fate smile kindly upon me in the next year or so people will be making the same fuss about Mercator book 1. I have to believe that he will be picked up. Because I have to finish his saga. I have to. How could I leave his tale unsung? He's too good for that fate.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Scrapped
Gotta make it iron clad or it just won't happen.
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Major Blockage
I should just soldier through it even if the writing is majorly shitacious.
Its not like my bad writing has stopped me in the past.
Its just so painful!
Weird.
Friday, March 20, 2009
I got the Jones
Yay.
I just hope that I'll be able to weed out the really stupid shit when I get older...
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Biographies
My biggest problem with biographies is that you always have to wade through at least one chapter, usually lengthy, on the person's family history.
Dude.
BORING!!!!
I don't want to read about Alfred Hitchcock's great grandparents. I don't care!!!
I know that it was a shaping force in his psyche, but it doesn't make it interesting in the least. Its just like long info dumps in fiction, especially fantasy, unless done artfully and without the reader realizing that they've just been treated to an extensive history of this non-existent world. (And believe me it's hard to work it into the story.) But at least fiction writers try to work it into the story. Biographers usually just dump it at the beginning and bore the hell out of you.
I understand the desire to want to keep the story linear (although most biographies start with a single interesting chapter which relates some pivotal happening later in the subject's life, because other wise we'd never get past the first paragraph), but really...try to make it interesting. Play with time a little bit. Start with the person's most famous years and then jump back and forth weaving a more interesting story which really reveals their driving forces. Because I'm not going to remember in chapter 2 how his/her mother always gave them liverwurst giving him/her a life long fear of owls in chapter 38 when they go on a drug binge because the tour bus hit an owl. Weave it together. Make it a story.
Don't worry Janis, I'm a gunna do you justice someday.
I'd forgotten How Awesome this Movie is
As much as I love the new Batman movies. I think that the original two will always be my favorite.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
n+s= Pure super Awesome
Monday, March 16, 2009
Bum Bum Bum!
And got in trouble at fighter practice for it. So now I'm going to make an appointment with Kate to "fix it." And I'll admit that it could use a little fixin'. I'm excited.
Saturday, March 14, 2009
I <3 Mercator
I woke up this morning in love with Mercator again. I think it partly has something to do with having to look at a few maps for reference and remembering how much I adore maps. Which I suppose is a good thing seeing as me and Mercator are going to be together for a very very long time. I surely hope so at least.
Friday, March 13, 2009
Only star on the left...wait is that a planet?
Never mind I already knew Orion and Cassiopeia. I want to know more!
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Where are we?
And I loved Slumdog Millionaire. Especially the music. They deserved every award. Bravo.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Monday, March 9, 2009
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Friday, March 6, 2009
Look look look
Looks like they settled on a title. Good for them. I'm not watching it.
Scripty
Granted, for me being a nervous wreck only effects my ability to talk on the phone, but still...
Right now I'm not quite half way through my script supervising training and I can tell that even with 100hrs I'm only going to be basically prepared to handle the job.
And this is the most comprehensive script supervision training out there aside from becoming an apprentice.
I cannot imagine someone taking a lesser course going out and thinking that they are in any way prepared to do this job.
For the first time in my academic career, I am finding myself motivated to really study this stuff and get it down cold so that when I get out there for the first time I'm not worried about the basics, I can concentrate on the real issues.
I'm excited. I want to get out there. But it is daunting. The first time doing anything is daunting. Heck I'm still daunted putting on my armor on Monday nights. And this is so much more important.
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Ghost Bustin' Time
I wanted this so badly when I was little. I never got it. And now just look at what I've become!
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
One complaint
The dumbing down is my biggest problem with the bookends. Ravi is brilliant, persuasive, and easy to listen to. The other stuff isn't and has he aftertaste of tin can Christianity which is so prevalent everywhere in the evangelical world. To me it almost seems like a disservice to Ravi's messages. I just worry that those non Christians who I recommend the podcast will be put off from listening because of the intro's and outro's.
But that's just me, and I'm obviously not going to stop listening.
Babble
And here's a short article on the Vatican's stance on evolution. I kind of like how they called atheists absurd in their assumption that somehow evolution means there is no God. It's sort of like saying...something else really drastic wide sweeping and groundless.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Why never to post on internet forums
“To give truth to him who loves it not is but to give him more plentiful material for misinterpretation."
George MacDonald
Eden
On a tangent here's a sweet movie that shows what an asshole Rama was to Sita. And serves as a great illustration of how unbelievably unique the character of Christ is in comparison with other god/men.
Estrella War 2009 - Friday 13th Battle
This was either the first or second battle I ever fought in.
OH MAN WAS IT AWESOME!
I can hardly wait until the next time I get to do this.
Friday, February 27, 2009
The Rock Wanderer
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Regress
on further examination, the Oscars weren't that bad.
I still think the musicall and the host weren't the best choices, but the pacing, set and pretty much everything else went smoothly and didn't totally bore the audience.
I just felt sort of guilty for spewing so much venom.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Friday, February 20, 2009
GARRR
Why does it take so long? Why can't I just sit down and bang out a chapter without having to pry myself away from the internet every 15 min? Why can't I focus?
Brrrggggglllldddd.
Of course just sitting down and writing has never been a strong suit of mine. I'm a particularly good procrastinator. I was lucky to get a first draft done of a paper in college by the time it was due.
Proofreading? What is this thing you speak of?
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Evolution
Southpark Theory Of Evolution - More amazing video clips are a click away
I'm not entirely sure why I don't watch more South Park...
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Name
I was more interested in keeping Bryn. I originally wanted Brynja, but it's not "historical," or some such bull.
But it fits really well.
Why?
Because my persona can be a Shield Maiden without having to lie.
Second Home
In the same vein. This particular message by Ravi Zacharias is awesomer than awesome!
Home
I've had the privilege to have seen these several times. My uncle is a former representative and is currently a lobbiest. He's super cool and so is my aunt!
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Captian Eo (1 of 2)
This movie has stuck in my mind since I first saw it on my first trip to Disney when I was probably 5 or 6. It was singlehandedly responsible for my love for Michael Jackson. Who I think is possibly the most tragic figure of modern rock.
Ha!
In other news Vincent required another ton of money to be well, but hopefully this is the last time for another 60,000 miles. And by then I won't have to cry mercy at the feet of my parents.
Poor Vincent doesn't seem to like California. I can't really blame him. The other cars are mean here.
Monday, February 16, 2009
Beat
But damn was it awesome!
Except for the cold,
and the tent,
and vincent breaking on me half way through Arizona at 11pm.
I can hardly wait until the next war.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Going to WAR
I cannot believe how much CRAP I'm taking. I'm taking more than I brought back from my parents at Christmas by 2x. But if I'm going to be camping I don't want to be thinking, "if only I'd brought the kitchen sink." Which would be nice, but it's too heavy.
I'm stoked. It has to be so much better than even Great Western War...
:)
Peace, I'm out until Monday.
Monday, February 9, 2009
Conspired Against
Tonight's fighter practice has been canceled because of rain.
Which MEANS....
I won't be able to authorize for heavy weapons combat.
Which MEANS....
I won't be able to fight at Estrella because I was told that they won't allow authorizations there.
Which MEANS...
Why the fuck am I going? The real reason I wanted to go was to fight. I could co thrown weapons and archery, but I wanted to fight.
Fucking rain.
I'm hoping that an exception will be made in my case since I've been trying to get authorized for a couple of weeks. I'm not sure why they didn't let me do it last week.
I'm sad.




