Atheists Don't Have No Songs-Steve Martin

Poetry as a Leap Outside the Self

Test Your Awareness : Whodunnit?

Superman+ Organ= AWESOME!

If you know me, you know what place this piece of music holds in my heart and my history.

Superman forever.

rut

I'm stuck in a rut that I just can't seem to get out of and honestly I'm sure if I'm supposed to yet.

In the last, oh, two months or so I've gone into total reclusive loner mode. Usually I try and avoid this because my social skills usually deteriorate or I just get stuck in a loop and I see it as lazy. At least when I went into these modes and I was in school I had class to force me out, but now all I have is Church and the SCA and the SCA isn't that convincing of an argument. Unless I have a reason to get out I just don't. In past instances I had nothing to do but goof around when I was in isolation mode, but this time I've got plenty to do and I've been busy both creatively and intellectually. Unfortunately, I've not been busy enough on the creative side and I'm feeling a bit under the gun, no one's placed me there but myself but the pressure is there none the less. For some strange reason I find being creative for a concrete purpose very stressful. I'm guessing this is mostly because in school when I was creative it was for fun only. There was no benefit other than the pleasure of what I was doing and that mentality still sticks in my mind and will take time to dislodge. I really don't consider myself to be very good at drawing and the time it takes for me to do it well and the effort involved is grating...unless I get on a roll and then days go by and I don't even notice it. It's just strange to me and I don't understand it and I have a drive to understand everything I possibly can. I remember now why I tried to rid myself of my perfectionist nature. It's just too stressful and I really don't like stress.

Where am I going with this? Nowhere in particular. I'm just not going to Fighter Practice...again. I just can't do it right now though I want to. My absence in the SCA has been bothering me for a long time. I just can't quite figure out what's holding me back from committing as deeply as I had intended and wanted. I'm thinking that it's just this transitional phase that I'm going through. I just can't justify the time and effort the endeavor takes at the moment, no matter how much I love it. Perhaps it is avoidance or something. But the aspect that bothers me the most is my lack of commitment and steadfastness, two things that used to be so easy just aren't anymore. That and my seeming lack of discipline in certain areas of my life.

It just seems that I'm being rebuilt slowly from the inside out, which I've asked for continually. I just hoped it wouldn't be so painfully slow. But everything in time, there's much ground to cover between where I am and where I'm headed.

It's daunting to be looking at the mountain from the outskirts of the foothills. But exciting too.

The New Western Creed

Creed

We believe in Marxfreudanddarwin.
We believe everything is OK
as long as you don't hurt anyone,
to the best of your definition of hurt,
and to the best of your knowledge.

We believe in sex before during
and after marriage.
We believe in the therapy of sin.
We believe that adultery is fun.
We believe that sodomy's OK
We believe that taboos are taboo.

We believe that everything's getting better
despite evidence to the contrary.
The evidence must be investigated.
You can prove anything with evidence.

We believe there's something in horoscopes,
UFO's and bent spoons;
Jesus was a good man just like Buddha
Mohammed and ourselves.
He was a good moral teacher although we think
his good morals were bad.

We believe that all religions are basically the same,
at least the one that we read was.
They all believe in love and goodness.
They only differ on matters of
creation sin heaven hell God and salvation.

We believe that after death comes The Nothing
because when you ask the dead what happens
they say Nothing.
If death is not the end, if the dead have lied,
then it's compulsory heaven for all
excepting perhaps Hitler, Stalin and Genghis Khan.

We believe in Masters and Johnson.
What's selected is average.
What's average is normal.
What's normal is good.

We believe in total disarmament.
We believe there are direct links between
warfare and bloodshed.
Americans should beat their guns into tractors
and the Russians would be sure to follow.

We believe that man is essentially good.
It's only his behaviour that lets him down.
This is the fault of society.
Society is the fault of conditions.
Conditions are the fault of society.

We believe that each man must find the truth
that is right for him.
Reality will adapt accordingly.
The universe will readjust. History will alter.
We believe that there is no absolute truth
excepting the truth that there is no absolute truth.

We believe in the rejection of creeds.

-Steve Turner

Postscript also written by Turner, as heard on a Ravi Zacharias mp3.If chance be the father of all flesh,disaster is his rainbow in the sky.And when you hear "State of emergency,sniper kills ten, troops on a rampage, youths go looting, bomb blasts school,"it is but the sound of man worshiping his maker."

Video Video Video

Too many videos. But. But. But. They're soo goooood!

So what shall I post? Um. Well I go home in 9 days, and its been 6 months, which is way way way too long to be stuck in LA let me tell you!

I'm supposed to be working on illustrations for Mercator, but I'm finding it exceptionally hard to convince myself that my drawing won't suck majorly. Maybe I'll draw today or maybe I'll just finish the stool I've been working on. Once it's done I'll post some photos of the couple of projects I've been working on.

BP Spills Coffee

Eleanor Powell and Fred Astaire

Best of the best of the best.

Rise

Rise and rise again until lambs become lions.

Lamb no longer. Hear me roar.