Moving Day

I'm moving back to my parent's house today. And that is all I have to say about that.

The Hood

I am at this moment listening to the Robin Hood: Prince of Thieves soundtrack and feeling very nostalgic. I need to see this movie again. I thought that I owned it, but its gone. :( I'll buy it when I buy GTA IV.

Hook

Oh, WOW. I'd forgotten how much I love, no ADORE, this movie. It brings all the best memories of childhood back. I was SOOO lucky to have been exactly the right age when this movie came out.

If I could make 1 movie half as good as this one, I would be satisfied.

Dude just check out the A listers who played nobodies.

Ahhh, my fire is renewed.

And if I were Peter I would have totally ditched the real world and stayed with Tink in Never Never Land. I mean, flying??? Hells yes!!!

Oh, blast. Now I'm pissed off. Why? Lost Boys! No girls. You know how much that sucks for little girls like I was. Freaking chauvinistic world. There are no Patricia Pans and the Lost Girls. Granted there aren't a ton of girls like me who want to hang with the boys and play war, but there are enough to warrant a hero or two. The shit for girls is all baby sitters club. All we have is Nancy Drew. Screw that. I want a Patricia Pan who never grows up and plays boy until she meets that guy who she has to save and once she does she'll wear a dress for him. THAT would kick ass.

Oh and Rufeo is HOT, but not as hot as the guy who plays young Pan. Oh wow, I had the hugest crushes on them when I was young.

Movies

I am suddenly reminded of my intentions to enter the entertainment industry.

Uh....ok.

Looking at the sh*t that Hollywood puts out, the originality/quality of the better scripts, and at the male domination of the director's chair, and everything I've heard about the politics of getting a movie made is really discouraging. Oh, and it doesn't hurt that Chapman is still completely ignoring me.

Sorry this blog is just a release for my complaints and insecurities. Better out than in, I always say. ^.~

That and I need to get a life.

retread

I really really want to watch this. But it could/would really mess with my head. I might end up enlisting. I've been considering it...vaguely.

Actually I've been thinking about the Army or Air National Guard. Though I don't want to go to Iraq. Its not that I think that I'm too good to go, quite the contrary, to serve with my fellow patriots would be an honor. But its a pointless war, and I don't want to waste several years of my life for a lost cause when I could be working my way up the Hollywood ladder. I wonder if it will be enough just to perhaps write and direct movies dealing with a woman's historic struggle for acceptance in the military without ever having really experienced it for myself. The fire to be a jet pilot is all but out, but the desire to be able to say that I did my duty and didn't run from it is there. Not as strong as it was a couple of years ago.

Ah, screw it. They probably won't want me anyway.

RvB

I love these guys. Their shit is really really funny. I own all of their DVDs. Seriously some of the funniest stuff ever.

:(

I HATE this game. So why do I continue to play it, get owned,and scream profanity at the television. I SWEAR I have to hit the other guy at least 2x as much as they have to hit me. It sucks. Then I do kill the guy and I don't get the credit. Its pissing me off.

Fucking Halo. I just can't stop.

O.o

He played Joe in this and this guy in Phantom of the Opera. Uh...wow?

Oh and he's going to play Nite Owl II in Watchmen. Possibly the best graphic novel ever written.

My mind is blown. He's so freaking hot. And what's worse is that he's a terrific actor. He's totally Ken, but WOW.

I'm going to go take a shower now...only because I did yoga earlier today I swear!

Futures.

Spring is almost in full bloom here the redbud's are beginning to bloom.

I am all but done with Jewell. I have an exit interview tomorrow and my final comprehensive is next Thursday. I've been writing about this for awhile now and its still on my mind. Of course its on my mind, its the entire of my world right now.

The most pressing thing on my mind is what I'll be doing in about 5 months. My entire future is in limbo as I wait for word from Chapman. If I'm not going to get into the school I would rather not make it into the second round of eliminations, I'd rather just be dropped now. But since I haven't heard anything yet, I'm not holding my breath, I'd rather not suffocate. Having said that I'm exploring my options.

I need a way to make a living once I get out to LA. I'm a little worried. I need a job that is flexible, part-time, and will allow me to actually live in LA and not a box in an alley. I have some ideas, but most of them require more training. My favorite ideas are Flight Controller and Fitness Trainer. I really like the idea becoming a trainer, I'd be good at it. But...I have to do a major personal overhaul, which could take awhile and I haven't been exactly good at major personal overhauls. I've tried.

Eh, I'll try anyway.

Are you SERIOUS???

Scarlett Johansson's album only covers his songs?

OMG. I was going to completely write it off but... its TOM WAITS!

My Future

I'm lost forever.

Hrm

I was working on my "director's reel."

Shhhoooot. I'm never getting into Chapman.

Crap.

*whimper*

If only the greatness in my head translated into super awesomeness in real life.

Maybe they'll take pity on me.

Or maybe they'll just shoot me and get it over with.

Weeds

I love that even the weeds are beautiful in the spring.

Ducks

This takes me back to the good old days. :)

Now to doing something productive. Like perhaps a director's reel. Or finishing my long suffering movie.

Perhaps. ONLY because there are no movies out that I need to see. :)

New HAIR!!!

Yippee!!!

I likes it lotses.




Now I've got to work on no more soda...most of the time.

Self Image

An Engineer's Guide to Cats

Last day

In about 13 hours my career at William Jewell is over. We will be striking the set for Circle of Grandmothers and I will be saying goodbye to the stage. I hope not for the last time, but to the place that I first dared to dream of something other than planes and spaceships.

I wonder if I'll cry in circle time right before our last show tonight or if I'll be too tiered to care?

Another transition. Another move. Another leave taking. More friends to miss. More memories to reminisce. A bittersweet goodbye. But its time for me to fly.


*oh God, I'm scared*

Phone

If you know me you know I HATE the phone.

Seriously...its a phobia. Like spiders.

Yeah, I hate spiders and phones. So what?

Anyway, I called Chapman about an hour ago to ask about my admission status. Luckily I got the guy's answering machine.

I'm effing nervous. I really hope I get in. I think a lot of the time when I'm afraid of the phone, I'm really more afraid of what I might find out when I use it.

Either way. My time in MO is growing shorter by the day and CA gets a little closer every time I turn around. The only thing I don't know is what I'm doing once I get out there.

Ugh. I hate this. Hopefully the next ten years I'll actually get something other than degrees.

Can't hardly wait

In 4 days I get to cut my hair. :)

Its longer than I've ever had it in my life. I dunno... I'm almost reluctant.


Oh, here's a pic.



I can hardly wait. Although I don't think I'll go shorter than my shoulders for the first cut. I wouldn't be surprised if by the end of the summer its as short as it was a couple of years ago.

Boot to the Head

Spring

It finally feels truly like spring.

I am still recovering from the weekend. Can I just mention that doing a 5-6 hour play cycle all in one day that includes intense choreography is more draining than just about anything I can remember doing.

It went really well. We had a pretty sparse crowd, but they seemed to receive the plays extremely well.

I've come to a decision. If I don't get into gradschool, I'm going to give acting as much of my attention as trying to become a script supervisor. And if I do get into gradschool, I'm still going to audition for my fellow students' films. It gets into your blood, and If you're anything like me it stays there.

Hmmm... Yes.

A Circle Starts Tonight

We premier A Circle of Grandmothers tonight.

I end the first half of the cycle alone. Yikes. The thing is, we're having some professionals in as panelists. I'm not nervous for my 30 min monologue, for the audience, I'm nervous of the panelists.

Apparently one is quite the professional actor. No one you've probably heard of, but still. I want to do well. Really well. I can't help it. It's my weak spot. I'm even going to go tomorrow and perform my audition pieces with the others.

I still have no intention of professionally pursuing acting. Well, not as my profession. I still want to do it though. Its freaking addictive and very challenging in a good way.

Phoenix Wright= addiction

Actually I must admit that I've only come to the series at the newest point. But it has revived my addiction to the Nintendo DS. So much in fact that I have sold my old one and bought the DS lite which is far far superior.

What NEEDS to be done is that all the old pc adventure game companies need to remake all the classics for the DS. i.e. Monkey Island, Grim Fandango, Day of the Tentacle... well Lucas Arts needs to at least. It would make a brilliant business move. All the old fan boys/girls would rebuy their old favs and all the youngens would buy them too.

Thus everyone is happy!!!!!