Play

Ugh. Another rehearsal. Only 4 more until we open. I'd be afraid, except I don't care.

I have been looking for this for YEARS!!!

Too Far

Over the last 5 years or so I've let things slide too far. I won't deny that it is solely my fault, but once a cycle has ingrained itself its really hard to break free.

I guess I've been looking for the last straw for some time now.

I hope I've found it. But its just so much easier to let things slide.

Perhaps being at home for the summer will help. It usually does.

Onward

I'm ready to move on.

I've been trying to move on for years. I made the first step when I abandoned my old dreams for new ones, turned my back on science and embraced the stage.

Part of what I'm really talking about is my tendency to cling to the past. There was a time when I never thought about what was and continually looked forward to what will be. That ended when I went to the Naval Academy. For a long while after that I wished I could return to High School my Junior year and have a do over. Then when I left William Jewell for Wheaton, for a semester or so I longed for William Jewell, my friends, and the theatre. For a long while at Wheaton I was content in the now. I never wanted it to end, but as all things do, it did. And ever since I have had this hole in my life where Wheaton used to be. But as time has worn on Wheaton seems like this distant beautiful mirage and I am still left here with this hole. Or perhaps the hole wasn't left by Wheaton, but was there long before that.

The other part has to do with missing parts of the old me. The me that would get up at 5:50 in the morning to go to school early by myself to run and jump rope. The me that would read boring books about anything that I thought smart people should know and not give up after a chapter or two. I wish I could find her. She dissapeared at the academy.

Ah, well, never mind. It will come, or it will not. Perhaps this next transition will prove to be the one I've been waiting for.

Hamlet

I've watched a few of this guy's videos and they all rock.

Sometimes

Sometimes it shows its face. Familiar. Comfortable. Unwanted. Or perhaps it is. What is it that kindles that old flame. Which fuels the forges of creativity, and destruction. For do not both coexist? Through the destruction of a star comes a new solar system. From the ashes of a volcano new green can be seen.

Perhaps all it wants is its outlet so that the pressure does not grow so strong as to rupture its container.

Break

Its been a nice break.

Spent 3 days or so with my Meme up north.

Got started on a documentary about this amazing painter that went to high school with my grandmother. She spent 30 years teaching art at Cornell and then retired to the backwaters of northern Missouri. She's amazing. I have two of her paintings and my parents have at least 6 more. My grandmother and I went and visited on Tuesday to talk about what I would like to do. What it boils down to is just talking to her and her brother about...anything. They're so interesting its hard to belive that they come from this nowhere out in the sticks called Yarrow.

I'm really excited about it. She's dynamic and wonderful to talk to. We only got to talk for about an hour and a half on Tuesday, but we covered a lot of ground and it felt like we should have been there for much longer than that. I'm not the greatest when it comes to asking questions, but I love to listen. Next time my Mom will go with me and I know she'll have tons of questions.

A Cardboard Hope

I don't really want this blog to turn into a videos I think are cool blog, but how can i resist this??? I CAN'T!!!

Have a super St. Paddy's day. :)

WALL-E

He's sooo cute! I want one. :)

Spring Break

So spring break starts tomorrow. All that means for me is that we don't have rehearsal next week.

:D

Yeah, I'm happy about that. In exactly one month I'll be done with this show. :) :) :)

Do you know what this is? It is the coolest thing ever made. Ever.

It is a guitar pick made out of meteorite. See those crosshatching lines? Its called the widmenstatten pattern. You see that on meteorites.

My first bit of space in the form of a guitar pick. It can't get any better than that.

Comps

I had my long written senior theatre comprehensive today. It was 300 questions long, fill in the blank, no word bank, and I had 3 hours.

I think I did OK. The best ANYONE has ever done is a 75%. I'm not worried. I doubt I did that well, but my pride is hurt not to. I totally could have if I had known an extra week ahead.

Lets be honest. That wouldn't help.

I'm soo tiered and frustrated with this play. I totally broke character at the most inopportune time. I repeated a line and just couldn't hold it. I'm claiming being up until 3am last night and then having to be up at 8am and take a 3 hour test.

Night.

Whole New World Nick Pitera

This so blew my mind

Sword fights

I spent 7 hrs in the theater today working on sword fights.

Not that's what I signed up for. :)