F*ck Chapman

I didn't get into Grad School.

I knew when they went 3 months without talking to me that my chances were extremely low. My parents were subbornly optimistic, but I knew within a month that I probably wouldn't get in. And really I'm glad. It'll be nice not to be in school for at least a year. I am a little peeved that they didn't even want to talk to me. I do have an unusually interesting background for someone applying to film school. But they could also be the type of ass-holes that dismiss anyone who hasn't spent their entire life making hundreds of mediocre films and spent all of their free time in the single minded pursuit of being pretentious. If that's the case then I don't want anything to do with them. But I'm pretty sure that's just me feeling for the first time what it feels like not to get into a school. Besides, given the number of times I've switched schools and career paths they may see my background as a sign that I may not be as serious about this vocation as they want their students to be. Ugh. Or maybe its just a sign that I shouldn't go to school to be a director, but that a different career in film is where I should concentrate my efforts for the time being. Like acting. Lol. I can't belive I'm considering it, but I like it, and I could be really good at it. I'm no star, but I could get character work. Or that I should pursue script supervising, which I am also interested in and that could lead me into other avenues. Plus I won't have to give them what money I have left and instead can use that to get my bearings in LA.

Who knows what I'll be doing in a year. I'm not worried. What is supposed to happen will.

And its not my fault that Chapman didn't even want to gauge my potential. Their loss more than mine. Besides there's always next year.